i suppose insecurity is my worst problem... for now. as silly as it sounds, i want that special someone to be always there around. to offer me comfort yadayada.. the works. (or words in this case) i guess im too paranoid... and too selfish and too smothering. i just cant help it. as retarded as this sounds. im worried that if i give it my all, it still wouldnt work out. im afraid i would have to resolve to doing something in order to get your attention. im scared that you'll find me a bother. im tearing my hair out because i know i might be thinking too much. i hate it la. barely 5 hours and im feeling like shit. eeks. is this one of my mood swings? oh boy, im not sure. but i really hopes he replys soon. it feels so like last time. but i suppose that was much worse. built alot of hatred and self-pity in me. feel very warm and stuffy now. is it me or the room? yikes. am so down. two words keep replaying in my mind now. carried away carried away carried away carried away.
SHIT LA.
FEMME
Spice& everything rhizomic
Positiveness attracts.
In memories& in time to come
Lit lessons; with the specfics
