i remember meeting jiayi in ijc!
memories rushed in the very frame of mind.
it's so stupid but i cried. i miss her so much.
oh dear.
muscle is a little swollen, according to the chinese physician.
quite a funny experience. was laughing cos i cant really stand people massaging me.
not really ticklish. just really funny (:
was laughing so hard in that tiny room. whoops*
hung out at my cousin's place. actually, it was more of a pig-out session but that's not the point.
i hit 50kg! OMG. i know why lah, at the rate im eating. i think anorexics will think im the filthiest thing alive and bulimics will die to puke everything out.
ran on the treadmill today. life as a whole just flashed past in a short span of 40 minutes.
what exactly have i done to my life? is the one you see what you really get from me? am i potraying myself to be someone that i might not be? it's really quite depressing.
i dont know what the hell is wrong with me and sleep is not curing this temporary state of mind for me so i shall continue rambling on and ranting about how life is unfair... not.
im so confused, the feeling's all jumbled all and jammed somewhere in my system. (not digestive mind you) i feel like shouting it all out. it'll just bring chaos. IM SO EXXAGERATED I SHOULD DROP DOWN AND DIE NOW. paradoxically true.here i am, struggling to keep everything in, bursting at the seams. wishing you were there. NO, you would just gloat at me. no point. never had never will never can be.
