Am I okay?
How can I be okay when you used to make me so happy/floaty/ignorant/stupid?
How can I be okay when you truly made me smile?
How can I be okay when some memories just seem to be on autoplayback and I can't resist smiling?
At the same time,
How can I be okay when you don't respect me?
How can I be okay when it's obvious it's not me you're interested in?
How can I be okay when all you say is not anything you meant?
How can I be okay when you just say things not to mean it but to get what you want?
Yet,
How can I be not okay? Knowing that I should just move on because it's not worth it.
How can I be not okay to find out that I've just escaped what could have been more abusive, more serious case?
How can I not be okay to escape?
One question, probably asked out of curiousity and boredom. You would have no idea what it instigated.
I need to vanish.
