I suddenly feel so alone. So lonely.
I mean, it's frightening. The intensity of it all.

Like J wants to meet for supper... but I can't I'm in hall.
Like I want to meet people to go out... but I can't I'm in hall, I have no $$$
Like I want C to make me laugh... but he can't because he's sleeping like 25km away from Hall 3.
Like I want to do things that make me happy... but I can't because work keeps haunting me.
Not that I'm productive.

Like I want to talk to my mother... but I can't I don't know how to.
Like I want to bathe but... I'm scared.

Okay this sounds freaking silly but I feel better. Thanks for listening.